Currently Listening The Man Who Sold the World By David Bowie see related

Love hurts no matter what you do
No matter how bad I want it, I can't be with you
I miss you so much, but I love you even more
There is something missing from my life, my heart is tore

I tell you all the time how much I want you back
But I will always have that love from you that I lack
With the circumstances now there will be nothing more
But everyday I pray for the future that there will be more

My mind is so fogged, I'm so confused on what to do
I can't help but to wake up and think about you
Every night I fall asleep and dream of you
But yet there is still nothing I can do

I know I shouldn't feel this way, but you feel the same
I know that this stupid little poem may even sound lame
But I don't know how to tell you any other way

I still love you, even with what happened in the past. Even if you could never forgive yourself, I could forgive you. Actually, I already have. I know I shouldn't be telling you this at this point of your life, but I have to get it off of my mind. I'm sorry for everything, I wish we could take it all back.

Currently Listening Even If You Don't By Ween see related

Alright so this week has been extremly busy and blurry! I kinda just want to sleep all day today!

Monday: Went to school...nothing exciting...then afterwards hung out with Andy and we went to Joel's house...that was fun
Tuesday: Went to school..again...and then hung out with Andy, Sketh, and his grilfriend Meagan...we went to doentown A2....
Wednesday: didn't have to go to school until 10:00 so Andy picked me up before school and we went to Joel's and got high...that was fun...then I went to visist Rachel at the hospital after madre got out of work
Thursday: went to school...i know fun eh?...then went to padres and then madre picked my up and i did nothing...
Friday: umm...went to A2 with Andy, Joel, Steph, Sketh, Meagen, Justin, and Steve...tehn we went to Jeff's and got somewhat high not really then back to Joels and for high for real this time
Saturday and Sunday: went to lansing

HAPPY HOLIDAYS MAN! It's f-ing four-twenty! Too bad I can't smoke pot today...but at least I got to celebrate yesterday...but I'm still upset that I can't do it today it bites ball sac...

Alright so Rachel Micklewright is in the hospital..she has gall stones...or whatever..she's getting surgery today...god...1st Danielle's mom is in the hospital and now Rachel..next thing you know I'll be dead...

Currently Listening Californication By Red Hot Chili Peppers see related

Alright so I really like these colors so I think I'm gonna keep 'em... but yeah...I figured my last post was a bit long...so I'm starting a new one...

Alright so there is a song of the week for this week but I don't have my planner on me so I can't tell you what it is at this very momento...but if you get back with me later I will know soon...well the song of the week is "Trap Star" by Joung Jeezy...

Alright so this is what has happened so far this week...
Monday: kept on painting my room
Tuesday: started doing a 2nd coat on the walls and ran out of paint...so me madre and bradley murillo went to Lowe's and got more paint and tape so I can tape off the trim and shit so I don't mess up or whatever....then we went to Applebee's...
Wednesday: Finished painting my walls...and then I had to move onto the trim...yeah I kinda got frustrated that I was still painting so I quit...until my madre got home...then she helped me paint my trim
Thursday: Put my room back together and cleaned it...such as vacuum, trow away stuff I don't need yaadaa yaadda doo...
Friday: Woke up went to padres...sat around...Marissa came over...went to go watch The Benchwarmers...good movie...good movie...made me laugh a lot...
Saturday: stayed up all friday nite and went to bed at 5:30am on sat...so i slept in all day and then...marissa came over and then we went to Tony's house and got blazed!
Sunday: did a whole lot of sitting on my ass doing nothing....sounds fun eh?

Alright so it's a new week...you know what that means...there's a new song of the week!...the song of the week is...FIREMAN...by Lil Wayne...

Alright...so I just now figured out that the only nite I left my house of better wording...was able to leave my house...was Saturday when I was with my padre...

Monday: went back to school ((fun fun..jk))...but it made time go by a bit faster than normal with me just sitting at home everyday...
Tuesday: at my padres today...
Wednesday: at my madres heute...ha ha...i just put spanish and german together in the same sentence..crazy..anyhoo..so I found out Danielle's mom is in the hospital and that's not good...AT ALL!...
Thursday: last day of the school week for this week that is..anyhoo...so I have an othro appointment at 5:00 and then after that I am going to go to the hospital to see Danielle and her mom..and make sure everything is alright...oh and I have an ortho appointment today...
Friday: had no school cuz it's Good Friday...anyhoo...I hung out with Andy and Justin...that was fun..then later on Andy meet my mom and we all hung out...then I went back to my padres
Saturday: Danielle stayed the nite...and Steve and Andy came to my madres for a little while
Sunday: I slept all day...I kid you not...I was only awake for about...6 hours if that...

Alright so Danielle's mom is in the hospital...Carol took me to the hospital to see her...we bought flowers for her...she seems to be doing alright...I just hope she gets better fast...

Currently Listening Youth By Matisyahu see related

So yeah...this weekend was alright...not the best...could have been better..but hey at least i did something...
Friday: stayed home from school...too tired and didn't want to go
Saturday: watched my neice in the morning and then went to mason to my brothers and then went to Danielles house and then went to a bumping party yo...lol...
Sunday: went back home and then went out to dinner with my mom her boyfriend ((brad)) and his family...
Yeah my moms boyfriends name is brad and my boyfriends name is Brad..pretty weird i know...

Daniellle I already miss you girl...you are the coolest cat and luckiest lizard i have ever meet in my life...lol...you should be feeling pretty special right now...

Any ways...I'm going to go...have to take a shower and such...so PEACE OUT HOMES!

*The Dirty Doers are back in business*

I love you Danielle you are the bestest best friend ever and I've got your back...and I know that you've got mine...I hope we get to hang out this weekend and have us some crazy fun...lol

The song of the week is Knuck if you buck!

Wow...that took a looonnnngggg time...
Anyways...Monday: did nothing just went home and hung out...
Tuesday: did nothing...my dad came back in town...and I wanted to go to Danielles water polo game but can't cuz he was gone for like a week and he wanted to see me...
Wednesday: went shopping in the Adrian mall with madre and Bradley Murillo ((her bf))...I got a new pair of capris...and the Matisyahu cd...
Thursday: went to Danielle's water polo game and then spent the nite at her house...she took me to my house the next morning so I could go to school...we didn't go to bed until like 3 a.m. and then we woke up at 6:30-7:00
Friday: spent the nite at Danielle's again...went to DJ's and picked him and Bradley up ((Schlanderer my bf)) and then we all went to Chad's...Danielle and I didn't get home until like 2:30 a.m...opps...
Saturday: went to the mall with Danielle and Danielle..((two different people))...then went to my padres, D was supposed to come over or I was to go over to her house...but that didnt work out...so instead I watched movies with my neice Ayla...
Sunday: woke up and hung out with Herb, Caitlin, and Ayla, we watched Spanglish then ordered pizza then they all left then I passed the fuck out....

Alrighty...so I got to see Bradley last nite ((03/24/06))...however I think that Danielle may get in trouble..cuz we were supposed the be home at midnite by law, cuz D juse got her lisence and we got home at 2:30 and her padre got a call from her madre telling him that we weren't home at the right time...so hopefully D doesn't get in trouble...I gots ta pray for her...I love you Danielle!...well turns out D did get in trouble...she has her lisence taken away and same with her car...who knows for how long...all that matters is that they are taken away..

I look like shit today ((03/26/06))...I look all scrubby and dirty...that's why I am waiting for Kenson to get out of the damn shower...alrighty so I like reggae music...I know random right?..I have ADHD...I want it to be summer...that way I don't have to go to school...school sux major ball sac...

Summer=parrrrtttyyy tiimmmee

Well it's time to take a shower, then maybe take a nap...damn I'm tired...so PEACE OUT HOMES!...

p.s. Danielle Renee Schulze I love you...Dirty Doers for life! You're a cool cat and a lucky lizard!...

p.p.s. KNUCK IF YOU BUCK BOY!

Alright so I'm just going to keep adding to this one...until I feel that it is long enough...
Monday((03/27/06)): Went to Padres and did homework then went to Madres and did nothing...fun eh?
Teusday: did nothing...just sat on my ass at my dads...
Wednesday: once again did nothing...except this time it was at my moms
Thursday: well I got grounded and Spring Break starts Friday, so yeah can't do anything on break...and it definitally sucks my ball sac if I had one that is...
Friday: Spring Break starts..I better look forward to a whole lot of nothing....
Saturday: Bridget stayed the nite and we stayed up till like 5:30 am
Sunday: Bridget helped me on starting to paint my bedroom...then my madre and I took Bridget home later on

Alright song for this week is Grillz

So I'm going to leave and eat some food...PEACE OUT HOMES!

What it is hoe!

Ok well today was kinda boring...I like this writing...its kinda pimp...anyways...so yeah
1. I haven't seen Danielle Renne in like forever...I miss you hoe...and fuckin...comment my fucking xanga bitch...lol...jp...
2. I miss Bradley...I haven't seen him in like longer than forever...
*Song of the week is: My hood by Young Jeezy...yeah that song is pretty pimptastic...
* *Alrighty...a cd I want really bad right now is...Matisyahu...I don't know if he has more than one cd out...but I want the one with Youth and King without a crown on it....they are really good songs...
* * *Ok I don't think anyone's going to argue with me on this one...it was beautiful weather out today...
* * * * I'm starting to write with my left hand...I'm trying to train it...I think it would be cool to be able to write with both and have them both look good...
* * * * *but I'm going to PEACE OUT BITCHEs...I will talk to you later...
Knuck if you buck boy!